First, the business. New writing workshop starting January 27th, 2015.
Now, the musings. There’s something about the New Year that has everyone ready to put the old behind and make a fresh start. This time last year, I had well and truly overloaded myself with writing-relating activity–MFA playwriting class, a short fiction craft class with Zsuzsi Gartner, a novel mentorship with Gail Anderson-Dargatz. Nothing like working in three genres at once to make the mind melt into warm goo.
And in contrast? I ending the year taking an extended writing break. Once Nanowrimo and the Story Intensive wrapped up, I just stopped everything for a while. It felt great, until I had to start again. I went from resolving to write more to being determined to write less.
Like many people, I tend to get all-or-nothing about writing. Either I’m trying to take on so much that I cannot possibly do it all, or I am doing so little that starting up again seems impossible. That even balanced daily dose of creativity seems against my nature.
The thing is, I think we all get a bit all-or-nothing about writing. We think “Oh, I didn’t meet my word count goal. I Facebooked and watched TV instead. I am terrible and will now shame-eat cookies and wine, thus killing several resolutions at once.”
And then… we figure it’s useless and we aren’t real writings and the beating up on ourselves begins because darn it, we tried to do everything perfectly the first time and it didn’t work so why try at all?
You know, writing never works that way. Writing is never everything perfect the first time. (If only!) The process of writing isn’t even perfect all the time. The reality of it is more a lot of doggedly trying again, doing things without knowing if it will work or not, and well, writing a lot of crap. It’s sitting down with time and good intentions and then the cell phone rings and you knock your cup of tea over and the ink on your notes run but you can’t do anything about because it was an emergency call, and by the time that is all over and done with, somehow you lost a month.
You might beat yourself up here and tell yourself that you aren’t really a writer.
But the thing is, you will, eventually, sit down with good intentions again. You’ll make your yearly resolution to write more, because every year, you take stock and remember: This is the thing I want to do! And you try again.
That is what makes you really a writer.
It’s a new year and a new start. How about this year, along with resolving to write more, to write daily, to complete that novel…. you also resolve to not be so hard on yourself? To let yourself screw up and write more anyway? To call yourself, even if only privately to your mirror, a writer.
Happy new year, Writer.
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